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This is my diet journal. I'm hoping to motivate myself to lose weight through shame and accountability. Tune in to see how it goes.


Apr. 23rd, 2012 @ 12:43 am Second verse, same as the first....
I Can Fly - Amanda Palmer
vixalicious:
Ok, so... I started the year off with a bang and went from being about 192lbs in December to 183 by mid-February.

Then I went on the road for six weeks and did absolutely nothing and gained it all back. Awesome. And as I read through this journal, I see this pattern emerge over and over. I start out strong, the first six months go well, and then it all reverts back. It's very frustrating, but I am not giving up hope.

I am, however, changing tactics.

I've been using a new program called LoseIt.com to track my food and exercise. I like it a lot - they have both a website and an app, and you can scan the barcodes on items to search for them. It's very handy. And it's got a social media aspect - you can have friends, and it also posts to facebook. I've been pretty good about tracking this month, but it occured to me the other day that I was just tracking, not actually planning meals to make my limit. So I've been working on that this weekend.

But today's biggest epiphany was reward-setting.

I was chatting with one of my friends who is also using Lose It, and she mentioned that she has set herself a reward for hitting her goal weight - an iPad. Now, I have been wanting and wanting one, but talking myself out of it because it's not something I need. But it is something I really want. So what better way to motivate myself?

For the record, my goal weight is 165. As of last week, I weigh 189.5. That's nearly 25 pounds.

Wish me luck!
Jun. 1st, 2011 @ 11:49 pm Dieter's Log
Don't Stop Believin'
vixalicious:
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This Week's Weight: 181.9
Last Week's Weight: 179.9
Starting Weight: 192.2
+/- From Last Week: +2
+/- From Starting Weight: -10.3

Ok, so I was all set to come on here and rant about the weight gain and how I don't understand because I was really pretty good this week. Instead, I sulked all day and went out and bought ice cream and sulked more.

And then realized I was starting my period ten days early & that's why my weight is up. Dammit. Now I feel guilty about the ice cream. And it wasn't even GOOD ice cream.
May. 21st, 2011 @ 04:36 pm Not Really a Weigh In
Don't Stop Believin'
vixalicious:
I forgot to weigh in on Wednesday, but I did it yesterday morning, and I was down to 179.9. This is so barely into the 170s that I shouldn't even count it, but OF COURSE I am counting it! 5 more pounds and I'll be back down to what I have thought of as my "normal" weight, and then I can work on losing down to where I should be.
May. 5th, 2011 @ 03:06 pm Dieter's Log
Don't Stop Believin'
vixalicious:
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This Week's Weight: 183.2
Last Week's Weight: 183.9
Starting Weight: 192.2
+/- From Last Week: -0.6
+/- From Starting Weight: -9

Ah, how easily it goes back on, how slowly it comes off!

I feel like this should be going faster! And yet, realistically I know why it isn't. I am snacking a bit too much, making not the best decisions when it comes to eating out (although I eat out so much less now that I have my meal plan!), and I'm not exercising outside of tennis.

I am, however, taking my vitamins each day, and letting my ankle rest up a bit. It's disheartening to realize that I have set myself back a month with one week's transgressions, but I will get through it.
Apr. 27th, 2011 @ 08:47 pm Dieter's Log
Don't Stop Believin'
vixalicious:
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This Week's Weight: 183.9
Last Week's Weight: 181.9
Starting Weight: 192.2
+/- From Last Week: +2
+/- From Starting Weight: -8.3

Ugh. Okay, it's actually not as bad as it could have been. I was onsite last week, and the hotel room service wouldn't let me special order much and their menu was limited. Also, after Monday I didn't work out through the week until Friday because I've been having problems with my ankle and wanted to give it a rest - which seems to have worked, I played tennis over the weekend and it's feeling much better.

And then there was the weekend - no groceries, holiday meal and candy.

So all told, as I said, it could've been worse.

Forward motion! This week I am focusing on vitamins. My hair & nails have been in bad shape for a month or so, and I'm hoping taking supplements will also give me more energy. I am taking a multi-vitamin, calcium, glucosamine, biotin, and folic acid. I bought a day-of-the-week pill box for them to go in, because I am secretly 80, and I am taking them at lunch each day as that is the most consistent time I have.

Next plan is to start using the Wii Fit every day. I haven't quite managed it yet, but it needs to happen.
Apr. 14th, 2011 @ 11:57 am Ten Pounds Down, Thirty+ to Go...
Don't Stop Believin'
vixalicious:
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This Week's Weight: 181.9
Last Week's Weight: 183.6
Starting Weight: 192.2
+/- From Last Week: -1.7
+/- From Starting Weight: -10.3


!!! The ten pound mark! I was starting to think it would never happen! I never posted last week's weight because I was bummed about it - up nearly half a pound and I wasn't sure why. I got a little disheartened, to be honest. But it turned out to be bloating as my period decided to do a bit of shifting around, so that's okay. I need to keep doing these posts even when it's not so good news, I know.

Back out on the road next week, let's hope I can manage to control myself!
Mar. 30th, 2011 @ 04:41 pm I'm baaaaaaaaack
I Can Fly - Amanda Palmer
vixalicious:
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This Week's Weight: 183.2
Last Week's Weight: 183.9
Starting Weight: 192.2
+/- From Last Week: -0.7
+/- From Starting Weight: -9

Whew. I was really, really worried that I was going to go back up by 2 or 3 pounds, since I was onsite last week and I pigged out! It was all buffet style dining, and my strength lies in not ordering food not in avoiding it when it's in front of me in a big pile. With an ice cream machine next to it. I did make an effort to ramp up my exercise while I was there though, so I guess that helped.

I do get a little disheartened at the pace I'm losing weight. I know that it is a healthy pace, but last time I did this it felt like once I started the weight just melted off. Maybe that's just the passage of time though. I should read back through my journal and see. Anyway, I am really, really looking forward to getting out of the 180s. It seems like I've been here for a while! But it beats the hell out of the 190s so I shouldn't complain. Posting the weight each week does actually make it feel less stagnant.
Mar. 19th, 2011 @ 11:30 pm Radio Silence
Cat - Hello Internets
vixalicious:
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This Week's Weight: 183.9
Last Week's Weight: 184.3
Starting Weight: 192.2
+/- From Last Week: -0.4
+/- From Starting Weight: -8.3

I know, I haven't been doing my weekly weigh in posts. I keep meaning to, but then I don't get around to it. Mostly this is because my weight hasn't changed significantly since my last post. On Wednesday I weighed in at 183.9, although on Monday I was at 182.8. I should have been posting the changes though, because I was feeling down about that until I came here and typed it and realized that every half a pound counts.

I've been a little frustrated because I thought my new eating habits would cause a more immediate weight loss. I think I went too low on my calorie count and there will be a leveling out once my body gets used to the idea of less food. I'm hoping, anyway, because I really like the meal plan. It's so nice not to have to think about what I'm going to eat! I am trying to snack to supplement it as well, and I may need to also pay closer attention to that to make sure I'm not going overboard.

This coming week will be a challenge, as I am going on a work trip. I hope I can make good decisions, and get some exercise while I'm on the road. We shall see!
Feb. 23rd, 2011 @ 02:45 pm Dieter's Log
Don't Stop Believin'
vixalicious:
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This Week's Weight: 184.3
Last Week's Weight: 186.5
Starting Weight: 192.2
+/- From Last Week: -2.2
+/- From Starting Weight: -7.9

So back down a little this week, good news! I feel, of course, like it's not happening fast enough, but at least I'm going in the right direction. I haven't been working out as much as I'd like, but I do need to change that. I play tennis at least twice a week, and I've signed up to walk a 5K in March. But I didn't do yoga last week, or yet this week. I'm thinking to try a pilates class over the weekend at the same place, but I didn't do it on Sunday when I had the chance. And I need to start walking on my treadmill but I haven't done that yet either. Procrastination \o/

I am however happy about my new meal plan. It's generally pretty tasty - except for yesterday's boiled egg fail! Ugh, wrinkly egg. - and way better than the frozen meal option. I haven't eaten the same thing in a row since last Tuesday, which as a single person is pretty remarkable. That was always the hardest thing about cooking at home, the repitition of meals. And I like not having to think about it - it's Wednesday, it's lunch, so I'm having the container marked Wednesday lunch. Which was penne pasta with mozzeralla, and peas with mushrooms. Not a bad deal.
Feb. 16th, 2011 @ 07:34 pm Dieter's Log
Don't Stop Believin'
vixalicious:
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Starting Weight: 192.2
Last Week's Weight: 185.2
This Week's Weight: 186.5
+/- From Last Week: +1.3
+/- From Starting Weight: -5.7

♪♪Two steps forward and one step back, nobody gets too far like that... ♪♪

Okay, but it really could be worse. When I weighed myself on Monday, I was up 3 pounds from last week. I was upset about that until today when I realized that I was getting my period. Also, I splurged over the weekend and got Chinese food so I have to own that bad decision.

Also, I was trying not to grocery shop as I started on the Good Meals program on Tuesday, so I didn't want to have food to waste.

Speaking of! I have been on it for two days now and I am liking it! The food is good - not restaurant good, but way better than frozen meals. I am loving the variety - I had pumpkin bread for breakfast yesterday, hashbrown casserole this morning, and tomorrow I get to have something entirely different! I think only single people can truly understand the joy in that - I don't have to eat the same thing for four or five days! :)

My only complaint so far is that I am hungry. I need to get some snacks, about 100-200 calories a day. Their plan options are 1200 calories or 1400, and the difference between the two was an afternoon snack. Rather than pay for the snacks, I thought I'd try to add it in on my own. We'll see how that goes. I'm also trying to wait until 8pm to eat dinner so that I don't get hungry before bedtime.